Bones by Conorlovegood
Jasper is afraid of change until he falls for someone worth jumping for. Rated M
Twilight - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Edward/Jasper
This is the story of Jasper Whitlock, he has endured so much hurt in his life and then finally finds a person who truly makes him happy and shows him that true love is real. Jasper has been abused and tormented for most of his life by his bully of a father. His mother has been no better, just turning a blind eye to the many abuses. The only one that seemed to care was his sister. When she died she left her newborn daughter in his care. When he meets Edward, his life begins to slowly change.
The story starts out with Edward worriedly explaining to Jasper that the time has come to meet his parents. Fearing that Jasper won't be able to handle it, he's hesitant to tell him. Jasper has faith in Edward but his own insecurities wont let him just go and meet them quite so easily.
"We've been summoned," he said solemnly, sighing again before continuing, "by
my mother." I laughed hard and the tension I'd been building dissipated. His
frown deepened before he raised an eyebrow and questioned me. "I thought you
weren't ready, love?"
"To tell my parents, not to meet yours," I answered, tracing the frown lines that marred his beautiful features. They disappeared under my fingertips, so I slid them down to the corner of his lip coaxing him into a crooked smile.
"You're bluffing, you can't fool me, Jasper Whitlock," he muttered darkly.
"Yes, but I'll bluff for them too, if it will take your fear away," I promised sincerely, ignoring images of the typical family greeting and suppressing a shudder.
"There's more," he continued, his eyebrows knitting back together and his tone more delicate.
"We've been invited tonight." He gritted his teeth and pulled his lips back from them in a tense grin.
I wasn't prepared for that, a month I could manage, a week I would survive, but not five or six hours. Pulling away from him, I started weaving patterns in the carpet as I paced, a breaking a sweat as I incoherently mumbled encouragement to myself, switching effortlessly from doubt to confidence. Finally landing on skepticism, I turned back to face him. He'd settled into his chair and I idly wondered how long I'd left him in the lurch while I'd been lost in my own thoughts.
"I can't," I finally breathed unable to control the break in my voice, fearful my words would hurt him.
He smiled sadly and held out a hand in invitation. "I know," he returned.
I closed the distance and laced my fingers with his, watching as his other hand made quick work of clearing the books and paperwork fanned out around him in organised chaos, then he spread his legs to make space for me. Perching between them, I gradually relaxed back into him as he soothed my worries away.
"It's okay, Jasper, when you're ready," he murmured pressing a kiss to my temple.
Edward is endlessly encouraging, warm, loving, and just accepting of all of Jasper's problems. Jasper isn't able to eat comfortably in front of other people, the thought of going to meet Edward's family is absolutely terrifying to him. But the thought of possibly losing Edward for something so small is just not an option. He loves Edward, even if he's not able to say the words to him. Edward is always throwing him a lifeline, and he seems so surprised to know someone could care so much for him. Edward does, he loves Jasper completely, and is willing to do whatever it takes to bring him some happiness. Even if that means helping him along to finally meet his parents....
"As soon as he left, guilt washed over me with no mercy. It was my fault he was heading into his family's party empty handed with nothing to show for weeks of neglecting them to lavish attention on me. I should be at his side. I was letting him down. I was worthless.
I didn't bother to fight off the thoughts, submitting to them instead, allowing them to consume me and take control. How could he possibly want me after letting him down like this? What use would I be to him when I could barely manage to fake pleasantries on short notice? He deserved better.
I allowed that thought to take hold, imagining how he would breakup with me when he realised I wasn't worth the effort, the guilt I was feeling reflected perfectly in his eyes as he extracted me from his life. I wouldn't put him through that, he didn't need to feel guilt for leaving me. I was broken and it wasn't his job to hold me together. I would leave while I had the chance, I wouldn't make him watch me pack. I drew all the thoughts together, using them to fuel the fire. I'd need the energy if I was going to act quickly. They boiled, pushing me up and out of bed.
A loud beep distracted me and I sighed, reaching out for my phone as the thoughts fell back to a simmer.
Keep my bed warm, get some sleep, I love you
Edward was throwing me a life line. Just like that, the thoughts retreated, not disappearing, but fading into the background. I read and reread, feeding a new flame. He loved me so much that my not going to the party was okay. I played his words in my head over again and again, and I realised I loved him so much that going would be okay. Repeating it to myself like a mantra, I drove myself forward in search of clothes. Not finding anything as easily as I'd hoped, I headed for the dryer in a last dash attempt of my new plan falling into place. The cycle had finished and I opened it, reaching around in the dark, searching more for a sign than an outfit. I pulled out the contents and found my favourite black jeans, black underwear, a white shirt and a pullover, even a pair of socks. A full outfit.
He'd known."
Some of Jasper's childhood is told in flashbacks, it's absolutely heartbreaking. The only good he seemed to have in his life was his sister. When he loses his sister he feels like his world will end, taking care of her baby changes that. He is so sweet and loving to Pepper, willing to do whatever it takes to keep her happy and make every dream come true. Edward soon shares his love for his daughter and wants them to all be happy together. When Edward surprises Jasper on New Years Eve, he shows how much he loves Jasper and thinks of him constantly. His willingness to go and meet Jasper's parents despite knowing how Jasper was treated is a huge undertaking. Seeing Jasper's father treat Jasper so coldly and cruelly is something Edward can't just sit back and ignore.
When you read this story, it's hard to think of someone as sweet as Jasper treated as badly as he was...and still is by his father. He has almost a childlike innocence to him. But seeing how Edward showers him with love and understanding is such a treat. The way Jasper takes care of his daughter is so achingly sweet, he's such a good Daddy to her. Jasper has problems that we're just beginning to get a glimpse of, but I'm sure in the end they'll end up a happy family together.
This story is only four chapters in, but each chapter is so good, and really emotionally charged. This is the first story for Conorlovegood and so far he's doing a great job. He and his partner are expecting a new little nugget soon so please be patient with updates the next few weeks...or months. Check this story out, if you love a good, angsty, love story you won't be disappointed.
"To tell my parents, not to meet yours," I answered, tracing the frown lines that marred his beautiful features. They disappeared under my fingertips, so I slid them down to the corner of his lip coaxing him into a crooked smile.
"You're bluffing, you can't fool me, Jasper Whitlock," he muttered darkly.
"Yes, but I'll bluff for them too, if it will take your fear away," I promised sincerely, ignoring images of the typical family greeting and suppressing a shudder.
"There's more," he continued, his eyebrows knitting back together and his tone more delicate.
"We've been invited tonight." He gritted his teeth and pulled his lips back from them in a tense grin.
I wasn't prepared for that, a month I could manage, a week I would survive, but not five or six hours. Pulling away from him, I started weaving patterns in the carpet as I paced, a breaking a sweat as I incoherently mumbled encouragement to myself, switching effortlessly from doubt to confidence. Finally landing on skepticism, I turned back to face him. He'd settled into his chair and I idly wondered how long I'd left him in the lurch while I'd been lost in my own thoughts.
"I can't," I finally breathed unable to control the break in my voice, fearful my words would hurt him.
He smiled sadly and held out a hand in invitation. "I know," he returned.
I closed the distance and laced my fingers with his, watching as his other hand made quick work of clearing the books and paperwork fanned out around him in organised chaos, then he spread his legs to make space for me. Perching between them, I gradually relaxed back into him as he soothed my worries away.
"It's okay, Jasper, when you're ready," he murmured pressing a kiss to my temple.
Edward is endlessly encouraging, warm, loving, and just accepting of all of Jasper's problems. Jasper isn't able to eat comfortably in front of other people, the thought of going to meet Edward's family is absolutely terrifying to him. But the thought of possibly losing Edward for something so small is just not an option. He loves Edward, even if he's not able to say the words to him. Edward is always throwing him a lifeline, and he seems so surprised to know someone could care so much for him. Edward does, he loves Jasper completely, and is willing to do whatever it takes to bring him some happiness. Even if that means helping him along to finally meet his parents....
"As soon as he left, guilt washed over me with no mercy. It was my fault he was heading into his family's party empty handed with nothing to show for weeks of neglecting them to lavish attention on me. I should be at his side. I was letting him down. I was worthless.
I didn't bother to fight off the thoughts, submitting to them instead, allowing them to consume me and take control. How could he possibly want me after letting him down like this? What use would I be to him when I could barely manage to fake pleasantries on short notice? He deserved better.
I allowed that thought to take hold, imagining how he would breakup with me when he realised I wasn't worth the effort, the guilt I was feeling reflected perfectly in his eyes as he extracted me from his life. I wouldn't put him through that, he didn't need to feel guilt for leaving me. I was broken and it wasn't his job to hold me together. I would leave while I had the chance, I wouldn't make him watch me pack. I drew all the thoughts together, using them to fuel the fire. I'd need the energy if I was going to act quickly. They boiled, pushing me up and out of bed.
A loud beep distracted me and I sighed, reaching out for my phone as the thoughts fell back to a simmer.
Keep my bed warm, get some sleep, I love you
Edward was throwing me a life line. Just like that, the thoughts retreated, not disappearing, but fading into the background. I read and reread, feeding a new flame. He loved me so much that my not going to the party was okay. I played his words in my head over again and again, and I realised I loved him so much that going would be okay. Repeating it to myself like a mantra, I drove myself forward in search of clothes. Not finding anything as easily as I'd hoped, I headed for the dryer in a last dash attempt of my new plan falling into place. The cycle had finished and I opened it, reaching around in the dark, searching more for a sign than an outfit. I pulled out the contents and found my favourite black jeans, black underwear, a white shirt and a pullover, even a pair of socks. A full outfit.
He'd known."
Some of Jasper's childhood is told in flashbacks, it's absolutely heartbreaking. The only good he seemed to have in his life was his sister. When he loses his sister he feels like his world will end, taking care of her baby changes that. He is so sweet and loving to Pepper, willing to do whatever it takes to keep her happy and make every dream come true. Edward soon shares his love for his daughter and wants them to all be happy together. When Edward surprises Jasper on New Years Eve, he shows how much he loves Jasper and thinks of him constantly. His willingness to go and meet Jasper's parents despite knowing how Jasper was treated is a huge undertaking. Seeing Jasper's father treat Jasper so coldly and cruelly is something Edward can't just sit back and ignore.
When you read this story, it's hard to think of someone as sweet as Jasper treated as badly as he was...and still is by his father. He has almost a childlike innocence to him. But seeing how Edward showers him with love and understanding is such a treat. The way Jasper takes care of his daughter is so achingly sweet, he's such a good Daddy to her. Jasper has problems that we're just beginning to get a glimpse of, but I'm sure in the end they'll end up a happy family together.
This story is only four chapters in, but each chapter is so good, and really emotionally charged. This is the first story for Conorlovegood and so far he's doing a great job. He and his partner are expecting a new little nugget soon so please be patient with updates the next few weeks...or months. Check this story out, if you love a good, angsty, love story you won't be disappointed.
